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Havn't updated in a while....
Never had a reason to....
Now i do.
:-)
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Thursday, March 24th, 2005
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I got rid of AIM today...figured it would solve a few problems on my end.
Heres a little quote for those that actually read this even tho Im not online anymore...
"And water can't cover her memory,
And ashes can't answer her pain.
God give me the power to take breath from a breeze
And call life from a cold metal frame."
I wish I could do that for you...
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So I havnt updated in a while...
NightBlades till the end.
^^Yes ladies and gents that would b my new clan leader...pretty kick ass if I do say so myself. :-)
Yea thats about it.
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Ok...I'm done.
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Saturday, March 5th, 2005
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So the Highschool band got a 1 at festival!!!!! :-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-):-)
The band did so good...i did really good too.
:-)
So ya thats it...WE GOT A 1 :-):-):-)
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Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
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So the band concert went well. I messed up a few times...but overall we did good.
Something was pointed out to me today, and I would like to share it. This song...I really wish some of it would happen for me. If you know me, you know who its about.
"I could pretend to love you,
And be someone else for awhile.
Make you believe your the one that i want,
Give you my heart in diguise,
I could be all you wanted
Make all your dreams come true, yeah
Surrender my love
At the feet of your will
And live out your fantasy for you,
And you would be happy,
And I'd make you smile
And I'd go on living a lie,
But do you really want,
To give your life to,
Thinking you've found true love,
When it hasn't found you?
Do you really want,
To give your life to,
Thinking you've found true love,
When it hasn't found you?
I could make you a promise,
And be all you want me to be.
Give you my hand as we walk down the aisle
So you could live happily.
And you would be happy,
And I'd make you smile
But I'd go on living a lie
But do you really want
To give your life to,
Thinking you've found true love,
When it hasn't found you?
Do you really want
To give your life to,
Thinking you've found true love,
When it hasn't found you?
Cause this is not
What i had planned
I hoped one day that you will understand,
If i could take
This heart i broke
And say i love you honey,
If i could.
But do you really want
To give your life to,
Thinking you've found true love,
When it hasn't found you?
I could be the one to hold you,
And i could be the one you need,
But i could never be the one
To give you everything.
I could be the one to hold you,
And i could be the one you need,
But i could never be the one
To give you everything.
Do you really want
To give your life to,
Thinking you've found true love,
Do you really want
To give your life to,
Thinking you've found true love,
When it hasn't found you?
Do you really want
To give your life to,
Thinking you've found true love,
When it hasn't found you?
When it hasn't found you?"
I know this may sound selfish...but somedays, I just wish that she would pretend, I wanna know what its like...to love someone so much...and them actually love you back...
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Alright...take the quiz or whatever the hell it is. lol
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12.Would you go out with me?
13. Physically, what stands out?
14. Emotionally, what stands out?
15. Do you wish I was cooler?
16. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
17. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
18. Am I loveable?
19. How long have you known me?
20. Describe me in one word.
21. What was your first impression?
22. Do you still think that way about me now?
23. What do you think my weakness is?
24. Do you think I'll get married?
25. What makes me happy?
26. What makes me sad?
27. What reminds you of me?
28. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
30. When's the last time you saw me?
31. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
32. Do you think I could kill someone?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
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God I love snow days. Seriously, you get to sleep in later. Sleep is good :-) Anyways so I slept most of the day, then Zach came over and we chilled for a while, then I went to physical therapy. I'M FINALLY DONE WITH PHYSICAL THERAPY :-) :-) :-)
So now that Im done with that I was supposed to be able to go back to wrestling...until the lil fucker Zach shot me in my foot. Now I gotta get the nail removed. GOD.
Pretty all around good day tho...now school tomorrow >_<
Later
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Monday, February 28th, 2005
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So I just read the xanga entry of Ashley because everyone told me to read it if i wanted a laugh. And I was bored, so I read it. Not only did I get a laugh, but i got an intriguing question along with it. Let me quote a line from it:
"You will realize that it's not going to happen and that everyone is sick of you. Their sick of you complaining when it's all your fault. It always has been your fault. You try so hard to come up with people's problems and imperfections when you don't even look at yourself. Eveyone has a problem but you. You envy everyone around you and make-up some god-awful reason to be mad at them."
Now when I asked a few people about this, they bluntly stated that it should be the other way around, or that she should be talking about herself, But I want to know what the rest of you think.
Just leave a comment with your answer. And for the anonymous users, I will be able to tell who you are, but I wont release who you are.
Thanks.
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So Im sitting here, bored yet again, and I started thinking about some things.
Butterfly effect
The mathematics of chaos has been popularized through the notion of the butterfly effect: the possibility that a large storm in New England may be caused by a butterfly wing flap in China. There are problems with this simple notion. These problems are keys to recognizing the difference between the models of chaos and the application of these ideas in most real complex systems.
To explain the difficulty, consider the many butterflies that might be responsible for a storm. Which butterfly was responsible? The answer is any or none of them depending on the specifics of the conditions.
It is reasonable to say that most of the time, nothing a butterfly will do can be connected in any way to the existence of a storm in New England. The reason is that particular conditions are necessary in order for sensitivity to exist. For example, hurricanes can be found in New England, but they occur during hurricane season.
Moreover, when special conditions exist that make the weather sensitive to small disturbances, then they are sensitive to many possible small disturbances. This means that a single butterfly is not responsible. Simply stated, if one butterfly changes its flapping, this might cause a change in whether or when a storm occurs. This effect could, however, be reversed by another butterfly changing its flapping. In this case, which one was responsible? There is no direct and unique link between a particular butterfly and the storm. Thus, we have to distinguish between the notion of sensitivity and causation. The storm behavior may be sensitive to the butterfly, but is not caused by it.
Finally, it is not established experimentally that sensitivity in weather extends as far as a butterfly flap of a wing. Even though mathematical models suggest that such things might in principle happen, there is no confirmation of this effect. Nevertheless, the lack of predictability of the weather and the existence of amplification due to feedback is clear in weather patterns. Understanding where and when and the degree of sensitivity is an active area of research.
These ideas can be better understood using a multiscale description of complex systems. There are many more behaviors at fine scales than at large scales. This means there are many more parameters describing the butterflies and relatively few parameters describing the storms. This is different from the usual low dimensional chaos models where a single parameter (real number) is used to describe the entire behavior of the system.
Basically it's saying that if one thing happens in one place...it causes (in one way or another) something to happen in another place. Even the smallest thing, like a butterfly, can effect a number of things on a given area, or time.
I was just thinking that maybe our actions today, could effect someone in maybe another country down the road. Hmmmm.....
Anyways, enough of the babble.
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Sunday, February 27th, 2005
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Yea so Im sitting here at home, and I got bored. So I now have a LiveJournal. Exciting ain't it? Ok so it doesn't really matter, but maybe this thing will help me vent, cuz at times, Im so fucking stressed that I just wanna give up. EMOEMOEMOEMOEMOEMOEMO...Oh well.
So I now have a person that wants to attempt to beat my ass...prolly worse than David, which is damn hard to top. Ashley, "called me out" and said she'd take me down. I couldn't help but laugh. I mean seriously, sure she THINKS she has a reason to, but all it is, is her being misinformed. Whatever, Ill let her have her fun, she'll get bored eventually.
So thats my first entry...hopefully i dont get bored and stop writing in this thing. :-X
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